Drama with a Capital "D"

Why is it that things have to be so complicated? Life used to be so easy and smooth. Everything went according to plan. Not a strict- "No we can't change anything" sort of plan. Just flowed... It flowed in and flowed out. There were no barriers, no pretenses, no "oh my, watch what you say, you don't want to hurt any one's feelings" just,,,just,,, family. that was all... The good, the bad, the ugly,,, the wonderful dysfunctional world that we all love and survive in. Get together,,, can't do it,,, not a problem,,, let me do that,,, no, I do it better,,, FAMILY!!!!!!

 Suddenly,everything is different. Or is it the same. Is it my perspective,,, my own worries,, will everything really be OK? How can we pass a test we are so nervous to take that we can't remember the answers? Spontaneity is the best. Organized confusion. respect....mutual respect... I'm OK, You're OK.. let's all live together and get along..

Or are we already doing that? Hum, maybe everything I worry about,,, the energy and all put in to worry will not go to waste... maybe NOTHING will happen,,, and everything will be OK.. That is my prayer... That is my plea,,, that is my promise.

Maybe I need a nap...

Poor cow...and I think I got problems....